Aphasia

Gotta mention this, sound embarrassing.

Blogging using English? British way?
Erm, I am NOT confident at all. My English is SUCK!! Totally SUCK!

Shit man, why I am so SUCK in my English? (by the way I am NOT good in any language or else) Standing in front of mirror, search the way out. NO point!

Sometimes. No, most of the time, the point and ideas just stuck in my mind. The impulse for create a words out just escaping nerves somewhere else, somehow. I NOT even know where it gone, do not park in the proper place. THEN......

When the words are just to blow up, it just.... gone
disappear....
supress.....
loss....

I mean my linguistic ability, when I talk
Apparently it so obvious when come to ENGLISH

What we call this in medical?
is it APHASIA?
mean I am having impairment in language modality,
theoretically I am,
since I have difficulty in comprehending and producing words,
even in pronouncing.

I have realise this for a great times ago,
And I feel so uncomfortable currently, when people around me asking for an excuse
"AGAIN, I cannot catch u!" , especially doing phone call.

Please be patient with me,
OR I am talking too fast, scare people catch my words
May be I should be patient in speaking speed, Do NOT always trying to catch the train

Kinda ridiculing myself,
I am NOT that bad, right =)

Then, why blogging in English?
Erm, it is because I call it as ...............

again.........APHASIA, gosh!


p/s: I found the words ( I call it as practise, a therapy)